Taurus man :D

TAURUS MAN

A quiet simple man who can do something unexpected to shock you. Taurus man
mostly medium tall, strong with good health, good strong body. When he
talks, he likes to turn his head to one side on one direction. His body will
be quite straight, facial structure tend to be square shape more than other
shape. His eyes sparkle with liveliness.

Even when he is in love, he is still a free wild bird. He is a sand in your
palm, the more you want to hold it, it will slip out. If you stand and hold
it still, it will stay that way. Don't set the rules and draw a line for
him, he will not stay.

When you are with him, he will think only of you. But an hour later he could
change his mind. He is very patient with other people, but very impatient
with himself. His world always turning and it will not stop just because he
loves you. If he up sets, he will show it right away. If something has gone
wrong, he will blame his own carelessness instead of blaming other people.

He sincere to his friends even to some friends he does not like. He likes to
do odd things and surprise other people. He could be fully dress in a nice
suit and jump in the pool. He could slap your back so hard just to make you
turn around to see he has flowers in his hand. He never want to get too
close with anyone for he thinks living in reality is living by yourself.

He does not care what people think when he behave weird. He could be walking
bare feet and laughing at people who laugh at him and think they are so
narrow minded. He does not likes to follow conformity, but always want to
search for new ventures, new mystery. He will interest in a life of a
millionaire as much as a life of an old man selling newspaper on a sidewalk
vendor.

He like to search and analyze people and things. He will analyze his friends
or his girl friend, and once the mystery is gone, he will search for new
puzzle to solve. He can not easily understand thing, so he will gradually
learning about you till he fills up all his questions.

He knows so many people ,but he has a few friends. He looks for quality
friends than quantity friends. He will be close with some friends shortly
and move on. He always feel lonely even surround by many people. He could
create his own little world, and sometimes no one would understand him. He
looks only for future and he thinks he lives for the future. He may wonder
how many people think like he does, but he does not want to be like the
others.

A man with a conflict personality. He is a cool, understanding, able to work
well, and very artistic. Taurus man could be an artist. He could shock you
as much as he is able to clam you down when you up set. He is a free spirit
who likes venture, but when he wants to be alone, do not touch him but to
let him be. He won't disappear from the crowds too long, he will be back.

He will give you straight forward opinion or comments, but will never advice
what he thinks you should do. He does not like people to tell him what he
should do too. He thinks each individual dreams and thoughts should be very
private. He will use his brain not his body strength, so he will let other
guys compete. He has a certain satisfactory in life and hate to force
himself in competition. He may seems careless, but actually he is a thinker
and a stubborn one.

He sees anythings in details and not easily trusted people till he thinks he
knows them well. You can just smile and he will think why and what are you
smiling about, and if you are pretending. Once he trust you and accept you
as a friend, no one can says other wise to change that for he will not
listen to gossip. He will be honest and sincere to his friends.

He hates lies, so he will not tell you lies. If he finds it is necessary to
lie, he will find other ways not to tell you or avoid telling you anything.
If he really has to lie, you will never be able to tell that he is lying. He
can really keep secrets, so you will hardly know that he is a lonely soul.

If you want this kind of guy, you have to be an interesting person. He has
to be curious about you. Hell for him is 'No Freedom', so if he marry you
then you should know it is the biggest decision in his life. Always be
interesting, then you could have him beside you.

我的心理测验

You love the crowd... a party animal! Too many “friends”, you can’t easily tell which among them is real and not...

You’re usually expressive... Open about your emotions and most of the time willing to talk about it.

You search for love... you’re a hopeless romantic and every time you enter a relationship, you give your all and believe “this is the One.”

You have so many ideas in mind... You’re creative and aggressive! If you want something, you’ll do anything to get it!

You’re a stubborn sweetheart... You “love” him/her only because he/she loves you. If his/her flame puts out, you let go with no trouble.

You’re intimidating! People have an impression that you’re elite—or if not, you simply look sophisticated. You gain praises but not companions.

You love actions... with the hero-like taste! You focus on your strengths and use them to protect persons/things that are important to you.

用你的脑袋瓜想想吧。

人之所以痛苦，在于追求错误的东西。

如果你不给自己烦恼，别人也永远不可能给你烦恼。因为你自己的内心，你放不下。

好好的管教你自己，不要管别人。

你随时要认命，因为你是人。

这个世界本来就是痛苦的，没有例外的。

你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。

每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。

当你烦恼的时候，你就要告诉你自己，这一切都是假的，你烦恼什么？

根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁，如果有一条疯狗咬你一口，难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗？

忌妒别人，不会给自己增加任何的好处。忌妒别人，也不可能减少别人的成就。

永远不要浪费你的一分一秒，去想任何你不喜欢的人。

得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。当有一天，你深入了解后，你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。

这个世间只有圆滑，没有圆满的。

不要刻意去猜测他人的想法，如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断，通常都会有错误的。

你要感谢告诉你缺点的人。

时间总会过去的，让时间流走你的烦恼吧！

不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，也不要因为小小的怨恨，忘记了别人的大恩。

感谢上苍我所拥有的，感谢上苍我所没有的。

当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。

如果你能够平平安安的渡过一天，那就是一种福气了。多少人在今天已经见不到明天的太阳，多少人在今天已经成了残废，多少人在今天已经失去了自由，多少人在今天已经家破人亡。

恶口永远不要出自于我们的口中，不管他有多坏，有多恶。你愈骂他，你的心就被污染了，你要想，他就是你的善知识。

你不要常常觉得自己很委曲，你应该要想，他对我这样已经很好了，这就是修行的功夫。

世界原本就不是属于你，因此你用不着抛弃，要抛弃的是一切的执著。万物皆为我所用，但非我所属。

学会用理解的，欣赏的眼光去看对方，而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。

成熟的人不问过去；聪明的人不问现在；豁达的人不问未来。

发光并非太阳的专利，你也可以发光。

你可以用爱得到全世界，你也可以用恨失去全世界。

爱的力量大到可以使人忘记一切，却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳。

人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的。

如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊，可能一辈子找不到朋友。

关于我的事与物

Full Name: Johnson Teoh Joo Sen
Single or Taken: It's Kinda Complicating
Sex: Male
Birthday: 11-May-1992
Sign: Taurus
Siblings: 3 Brothers 1 Sister
Eye colour: Dark Brown
Shoe size: 11
Height: 179cm
Country born: Malaysia
Innie or Outie: Outie
What are you wearing right no...w: Pants
Where do you live: Kuala Lumpur
Righty or lefty: Righty
Any pets: Dog :D
When did you start using Facebook?: Last year
How much time a day do you spend on Facebook?: Hours
Do you own a cell phone?: Yes, of course
Do you like to text?: Ya.
Play an instrument?: Piano =) Basic
Have any tattoos?: Nope.

What makes you smile: Chatting
Why do you smile: It's fun
What is the weather like out side: Cold
What or who makes life worth living: Myself make life worth living
What do you like better, colored pencils, crayons, or markers: Markers
What have you been labeled: Mature K...iddo
Do you think you are a nice person: Yes :D
What is the worst pain you've ever felt: Mentally or Physically?
What do you have in your cup/bottle: Liquid. :D
What grade are you in: Grade 11. Malaysia don't call grade, Form instead. Form 5
What do you want to be: Chef? Photographer? Psychologist? Tour Guide?
What is your worst habit: Drink Alcoholic Drinks.
What time is it: 9.23pm
What size bed do you have: King Size
What is bothering you right now: Relationship
What color is your room: White
What color is your bathroom: Sky blue
What is your home page: friends-wttt.blogspot.com
What is your favorite scent: I dont put them on my skin :P
What is your favorite perfume: No one
What is your favorite store: Errr, sweet.
What do you fear: Death
What is the best song you've ever heard?: Grandma by Jay Chou <3>What is beside you?: Human
What is the last thing you ate?: Spagetti
What kind of shampoo do you use?: Head And Shoulder
What's the best thing that happend to you this year?: Knowing more and more people :D
What's you favorite feature in the opposite sex?: Hair. Face

Name two people you miss really badly: Ahem. A Little Secret i should keep always
Where are they: Working
Is any one mad at you: I Don't Know
Who do you truly hate: A Lot of Them
Does any one like you: I Think so :D
Who is the last person you went to the beach with: Will...s, penang
Who is the last person you went to the movies with: That ordinary soulmate
Who is the last person you went to the mall with: That ordinary soulmate
Who is the last person to call you: Weng Hui [once my bestie]
Who is the last person to IM you: erm. Blue Pang :D
Who is the last person to E-mail you: Is Facebook a person? Tan Suit Yee
Who is the last person you IM'd: Blue pang :P
Who is the last person you E-mailed: Piggy Dolphin
Who is the last person you called: GSC Reservation :D That ordinary soulmate
Who or what were you named after: I don't know
Who is your favorite cartoon character?: Naruto? Master Q? Shin Chan.
Who is your hero?: David Beckham
Who do you know that is most likely to gossip?: I don't know
Who would you like to go on vacation with the most?: A Lot of them
Is there a person who is on your mind right now?: Yes.
Who is your loudest friend?: Errr. Don't know
Grumpiest friend: Nian Sian
The innocent friend: Piggy Dolphin
The shy one?: Most of Them ?
One that always swears?: Mushroom :D
The geek?: No, i dont like Geek.
The one that always gets hurt?: Girls.
The one with the worst memory?: I don't know.
The drama queen?: Qiao Wei
The gangster?: ... :( i dont like Gangsterism
The comedian?: Me :D Mushroom :D Kason :D
The flirt?: Me. ;P LoL oh well. So what?
The stylish one: Dicky, KingLee, YewJeat
The small but dangerous one: err... YewJeat.

Do you cry a lot: Nope
Do you make people angry: Yes.
Do you like who you are: Of Course.
Do you like the cold: :D Preserve the earth. Less Air Cond. So ya.
Do you like the heat: :( Global Warming. :(
Do you like to walk in the rain: Sometimes.
Do you have any one in m...ind that you want to walk in the rain wi: Yenjo.
Do you like expensive things: :) Ya i do, But i don't buy. No many
Do people asking you too many questions in a row bother you: Nope.
Why?: I Like answering
Do you like cameras: Ya :D Canon? Nikon?
Do you like taking pictures: Yes.
Do you like looking up at the stars: Oh. I Love to.
Do you like puzzles: Nope.
How about word searches: Ya :D
Do you like coloring: I like to "Conteng"
Do you want to move: Ya
If yes where do you want to move to: Forward.
Do you think the one you love is taking you over: Nope
Do you want to die: Last time
Do you smoke: I did, got influenced by bad friends. Now? No more.
Do you drink: Ya. Johnnie Walker anyone?
Do you like swimming: Ya. :)
Do you like the ocean: Oh i love The OCEAN
Why: Its BLUE and relaxing.
Do you like funerals: Nope. It makes me sad.
Are you morbid: Nope.
Do you think you are smart: Ya :D
Do you want to go to college: University too.
Do you have a job: Nope Jobless.
Do you like it: Err, i will appreciate it if i have one .
Do you get along with your parents: Ya
Do you have any siblings: Ya
Do you get along with them: Ya
Do you have any animals: Dog :D
Do you believe in magic: I Enjoy Magic
Do you have your own room: Share Room with my brother.
Do you do your own laundry: Nope.
Do you want to get married: :D Of Course.
Do you want kids: A Girl And A Boy? :D
Do you like doing surveys: as what i'm doing now ? :D
Do you like clowns: They makes me laugh.
Do you like cheerleaders: They cheer me up.
Do you like going to the beach: Ya :D i like to cover myself with sands.
Do you hear voices: (= ya.
Do you see dead people: )= I did.
Do you like to blow bubbles: :) 5/10?
Do you like unicorn horns: ... err, too fantasy ?
Do you like cotton candy: Ya :D
Do you enjoy fairs: Yes. Book Fair anyone ? PC Fair ? :D
Do you like playing with fire: When i was a Kid.
Do you like to go to the mall: :) Window Shopping
Where do you see yourself in 2 years?: Australia. I Wish to.
Do you follow the rules or make your own?: Both
What age do you want to get married at?: 30. :D As long as i can support by that time.
What age do you want kids at?: before 40.
Do you care about the environment?: Preserve the Earth. Save The WORLD !

Have you been called a slut before: NOPE.
Did it bother you: Nope.
Have you ever thought you were in love: I am in Love la okay?
Have you ever swam in the ocean: Ya. South China Sea.
Have you ever surfed?: Too bad i haven't
Was it fun: :(
Have you ever walked out on th...e break water to a light house: Nope.
Have you ever been inside a light house: ><>Ever climbed rocks: Ya.
Was it fun: It was so Fun
Who did you do it with: Sister :D
Did they have fun: Ya, why not?
Have you lost any one close to you: :( They left.
Ever witnessed some one dying: Never.
Ever been to any funerals: Ya.
Have you ever been in a fist fight: Err. Of course.
Have you ever gotten detention: :) I am a prefect . Haha.
Have you ever been suspended: Nope of course.
Have you ever been expelled: I am Disciplined.
Have you ever passed out from being drunk: Nope.
Have you ever asked any one out: :D Always. Fei Siong, Ally, Queenie, Mushroom, Kason, Caren :D Jay2u.
Have you ever had heat stroke: Nope
Have you ever eaten any bubbles: Ya :D
Have you ever been in an ambulance: Never.
Have you ever had stitches: Nope.
Have you ever had any ex-rays: Ya.
Ever had to have surgery: Ya.
Have you ever watched a porno?: Err. Ya :( Boys.
Tried to wash your hair in the rain?: Ya. :D
Ever thought about becoming an actor/actress?: Last time.
Fantasized about the same sex?: Nope of course.
Ever had a dream about your friends bf/gf?: Nope.
Slapped or punched a guy in the face?: Always. sorry Kah Hon
Loved someone so much it hurt?: Ya :D
Regretted breaking it off with someone?: Never regret. I know what the best for me.
Wanted to enter American Idol?: :( Nope. I'm Bad singer.
Laughed at something when no one else thought it was funny?: Ya. It's Fishy.
Wrote a letter to someone and never mailed or sent it?: Ya :D
Cried while listening or singing a song?: ><>Stole something from someone's house at a party?: Err. Nope.
Burped in public?: Ya :O
Walked barefoot in the sand?: Of course ==
Whistled while you worked?: whistled while i study.
Watched disney movies as an adult?: I am not officially an adult yet :D Next year.
Swore with little kids around?: Ya :D
Wrote a song for your bf/gf?: Nope.
Ever peed your pants from laughing too hard?: Never.
Held a gun?: Paint Gun? :D ya.
Shot a gun?: BB Gun? Ya.
Won a trophy?: Of course. Talented.
Wanted to be a cop?: :( Nope.
Pierced anything?: Haven't
Felt like you were the smartest one in the room?: Nope.
Laughed and cried at the same time?: :) Always

Are you happy with your life: Ya :D Its Simple
Are you random: Very Random.
Are you happy you are alive: Of course. i cherish my life.
Are you a geek: :( Nope!
Are you good at math: err. Grade A :D
Are you good at history: :( Not so.
Are you good at English: :D I ca...n speak well.
Are you good at science: :( Not good
What other languages do you speak: Chinese, Hokien, Malay, Cantonese, German, Japanese, Korean. :D
Are you cold: :( Very Hot.
Are you happy: Very.
Are you sad: Err. i dont sad while i am happy.
Are you confused: Ya :(
Are you shy: I am shy as always.
Do you feel comfortable walking around your house naked?: Sometimes. :D
Non-stop partying or relaxing day by the pool?: (= ya. Like Gianni's Farewell.
Sun glasses and a hat, or a scarf and a hoody?: scarf with hoody :D
Soda or Energy drink?: Isotonic.
Small town or crowded city?: Suburb
Manual labor or desk job?: Desk Job
If you could have any super power what would it be?: Everything.
Hero or Villian? Why?: Hero :D
Celebrity you want to meet?: Jay Chou.
Weapon of choice?: M16.
Do you have Deja Vu ever?: What's That?
World peace or anarchy?: PEACE NO WAR! :D
Confrontation or avoidance?: confrontation :D
Do you sometimes get depressed just because?: My thoughts.
Watch or do?: Watch And Do
Procrastinate or get a head start?: Procrastination is the first killer of SUCCESS.
Invincibility or eternal youth?: Eternal. :D
Vampire or zombie?: Werewolf :P
Football or Soccer?: Soccer
Emoticons (:D, ;), :p) or explaining yourself *signs heavily*?: :D :D :D Emotions.

Where were you born: Kuala Lumpur
Where are you: Home.
Where do you wish you were: As long as i with my family :D
Where is your favorite place to be: 7 Wonders in world ? :D
How many times have you moved: Three. From Kampung batu to Kampung Batu
Where did you get your clo...thes you are wearing: Malls?
Where do you like to shop?: Kepong Jusco
Where did you go for your last date: Mid Valley
Where is the furthest place you've been to?: Australia.
Where is your favorite place to eat?: :) Japanese Cuisine Restaurant
Where is your cell phone right now?: right infront of me.
Where are you going after this?: Sleep.
It's Thursday at noon, where are you usually?: Sekolah Sri Bestari.
Where have you gone on vacation?: Australia.
Where do you prefer: Las Vegas or Hiking in the Alps?: Las Vegas after legal Age.
Where do you like to relax?: Gold Coast.
Where do you go on the weekends?: Shopping Malls
Where is your best friend right now?: Their House.

Given anyone a bath: Nope
Smoked: Yes. Regretted.
Bungee Jumped: Nope
Made yourself throw-up: Ya :D
Gone skinny dipping: Nope
Put your tongue on a frozen pole: Nope
Broken a bone: Never >< Played truth or dare: (= I love It .
Been in a physical fight: Ya.
Been in a polic...e car: Nope
Come close to dying: Once ? :D
Been in a sauna: ya.
Been in a hot tub: Ya :D
Fallen asleep in school: XD Always .
Ran away: ya.
Broken someone's heart: I think so.
Cried when someone died: Of Course.
Flashed someone: ya.
Cried in school: Err. Ya.
Fell off your chair: Nope.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for a call: Sometimes.
Saved MSN conversations: Ya :d
Saved e-mails: Ya :D Some of them are Meaningful
Made out with just a friend: Nope.
Used someone: I think so.
Been cheated on?: ya
Done something you regret?: Smoking.
Had your heart broken?: Yes. Definitely.
Had a good feeling about something?: :) Ya.
Had a near death experience?: I think so. Car Accident.
Swam in freezing water: Nope.
Jumped off a house: No. =_+
Bungee jumped: I WANT TO ! :D
White water rafted?: Ya ya. Form 5 Motivation Camp
Pulled an all nighter?: Nope.
Surfed?: Nope.
Lied about your age?: Ya.
Had a green Christmas?: Nope, What is it about?

I was born on a Monday and since my birthday...
I've been living for 17 years
I've been living for 210 months
I've been living for 915 weeks
I've been living for 6,407 days
I've been living for 153,771 hours
I've been living for 9,226,317 minutes
I've been living for 553,579,064 seconds
I've breathed more than 87,500,070 times!
I've blinked my eyes more than 92,750,070 times!
My heart has beaten more than 645,842,190 times!

老大，小弟，好朋友，坏朋友，兄弟，姐妹，朋友

老大，小弟，好朋友，坏朋友，兄弟，姐妹，朋友

走，我们一起走。 Wttt 其实大家知道它的意思么？

我在建立这一个部落格时，我一直都是在想着，

我要永远跟我的朋友wttt, walk together, talk together.

Speech is silver, Silence is gold . 发言是银，沉默是金。

我有时可以很安静，有时却让你们不能tahan我在说什么。

我从不去特别归类我的朋友群，因为我总会知道哪一些值得交哪一些不值得

也许这就是我的归类法。what goes around, comes around,

如果我对人怎样，我总希望对方会那样子的对我。

所以我总会交很多很多朋友，多得我已经有点忘记名字了。

如果我拿出真心来交你这一个朋友，请你不要质疑，

就算我说我只当你是那一种普通的朋友

对我来说，你会明白我对你怎样。

如果要我用说的来提醒我们的友情的话，

我觉得我这个朋友很失败，到现在还只是一个烂熟陌生人。

就算没有人会在乎我的帖里写什么，总会有那一群在潜水的读者们，

谢谢你们，因为你们尝试阅读我的心里话。

我总会很喜欢那一些组织，因为更能显出朋友间的团结，

其实我自己曾经组起一个组织，结果不知道为什么地就关闭了。

尽管衣服已经做出来了，我天真的以为我们会是永远都很好的朋友。

结果没有了，出去玩永远不会叫我，有派对更希望我不在现场，

也许是我的性格，i dont care much. i am sorry being so CARE LESS. 有空格哦。

就算我不起眼，我不在乎只要我的心里当你们是朋友就好。

刚刚看到一个蛮重要的人寄来的邮件

友谊的幸福之一，是知道了可以向谁倾吐秘密。那个故事的结尾用了这一句话。

我发现我真的很幸福，因为我可以跟我很多很多很多很多很多很多很多的朋友倾吐我的秘密，

而他们，也会很守我的秘密，就算，我那些秘密也许只是我暗恋的对象

就算跟他们没有任何一丝的关系，我真的很谢谢他们，帮我保管这一个秘密。

也谢谢他们，其实都把他们的秘密，交了给我。

而我自然而然地，就会帮他们守着，这一个秘密。

:D 我们其实都很幸福。朋友是一生的故事，

如果你成了我的朋友，请不要嫌弃我，也不要感到害怕，

因为你永远都会是我的朋友了。

就算分开了，我都会是你的朋友。

我的手将为你们带来温暖，

我的肩膀给你们最肉的枕头，

我的眼泪都让你们看到了，

我的嘴巴让你们都会开心起来，

我的眼睛和耳朵会很专注于你们每一句话，

而我的人已经是你们身边的良伴了，

如果我对你们做到以上的东西，

你们应该就会知道，你们永远都会是我的朋友。

我小小一个希望，希望你们在你们部落格写出我让你们最感动的某些事。记得写我的大名哦。

terima kasih

解读 - 威廉士

Wills [ 我发现我越来越不认识自己了
对自己感觉到恐怖的陌生
觉得自己脱离了原来的灵魂
我好害怕
我身边的人到底认识我有多深？
他们认识的是我还是不是我
你又认识我有多少？？
欢迎你们对我做出评论 ~
谈谈你们认识的威廉士 ]

他真得很怕寂寞
所以我的出现
基本上有效地解决了他的寂寞
可是我不是永远品质保证
所以我找来了一个品质保证的朋友-蘑菇
认识了蘑菇的他
至少比起以前还没认识我和蘑菇之前
来得更开朗，更多话，不会突然发飚emo的Sh.
曾经的他，仿佛有那么一阵子很讨厌我这一号人物
认识我不久过后，更有想绝交的念头，
特别写了一篇文章给了我，锁上密码，
善于读心术的我早就看得出这一念头，更有支持他的感觉
反正我说嘛，如果你当我是朋友，我没有理由不当你是朋友
如果你当我是兄弟，我少了一个兄弟那不就很不值得
如果你当我是老大，啊，我多了一个小弟来服侍我。
话说你被XY围剿，原本就快把密码写给我看的念头
悠然而去。。。~~呵呵，深不可测的一号人物。
其实我都只是在把故事写出来而已，我没有必要隐藏起来。
你外表总装作不在乎，内心却有着无限能量的不甘心，
却永远不会让人知道，这样不好哦，要给人家知道，适量的对人家发难，
让人家也知道其实你也有不开心的那一分那一秒。
适时地找人聊天谈心事，可以抗忧郁症哦，想太多的态度也要多多改善啦。
还有还有，天下尽是犯错的人，不要只让自己一味地说对不起，
而别人说对不起时反而觉得惭愧内疚，觉得是自己的错，
有时不是自己的错时，请你还要理直气壮地挺胸告诉对方，你做错了。
至少不会再让自己有那份罪恶感。我能写得就到此，你能听得还多得很
多多听取人家的意见，不要一味地以自我为中心，不要迷失自己才最重要。
慢慢的寻找自己，别让你的朋友们担心了。
我的朋友的定义实在没有你那么狭窄，应该当朋友的，就当他们是朋友吧~
不要把全世界的人都当成过路客人，或路人甲乙丙丁。
忠言逆耳。珍重。

那样的我。

呵呵，曾经有那么何时，

曾经有一班对我反感的一群，

在我热诚和真心对待下，

个个都说之前真的看错我了

我的样貌和我的年龄不对称

我的年龄和我的思想不对称

我的思想和我的样貌不对称

这样的我，

却有着更不同更特别的优势

我的样貌让人畏惧，不容易被欺负

我的年龄让人羡慕，被前辈照顾还可以跟同辈打滚

我的思想让人却步，没人看得出自己在想什么，

我真的是这样的一个人么？

正值青春期的自己发现正值青春期的自己真的很多疑问，

人类阿人类，你们还真矛盾阿~

明明喜欢却不敢出声，

明明不喜欢却勇于宣布，

明明知道却要假装无知，

明明无知却硬要逞强扮代表，

难道这样的人比较受欢迎么？

=______________+

好无聊的人类。

我却非常地无聊

硬硬跟常人做出不同的决定

喜欢人家就敢敢发言

不喜欢人家就清楚告诉

就算知道也不多炫耀

可是不知道一定不炫耀

这就是我，你管得了么？

我呸。你敢么？

我的离去

明年二月的完毕

我就不会在马来西亚的领土里

我将去到千里之外的德国

从小到大都很向往去旅行的自己

却有点不太舍得这里的朋友了

一年的时间会有什么改变？

可能我回来时再也找不到自己回家的路

也许再被警察block时，不能再请对方喝咖啡了~

或者到处都变成越来越高级的地方了。

可能我回来时朋友不再记得我的名字和样貌

也许我回来时我不再有任何与他们有关的回忆

或者我回来时仍然有人高喊我很想你，你终于回来了。

可能这些都不可能

也许这些都只是虚幻里的现实

或者这些只有在现实中才会发生

我很希望自己记住所有所有所有所有回忆，朋友，样貌，名字，日期，身份

有可能？为什么没有。(= 这世界唯一的我可是有很恐怖的记忆力。

这是我很优秀的一个优点。

说穿了其实我已经必须要离开了。

离开的这一年内，

你们要帮我记录完我没到的聚会，约会等~

用最完美的拍摄技术，最原本的表情，最让自己永远不会后悔的方式呈现给我看。

我也会在遥远的德国，po上最原始的我，你们记忆中总是很自恋的我，自认为很成熟的我的照片

让你们羡慕这没有我的一年。也永远的怀念曾经这没有我的一年。

我不需要你们每天凌晨12点都想起我(poker king)

我只想要你们记得曾经的那么一个我曾经地高调地神经质地出现在你们的生活里。

那样，已经足够了。

我这一个johnson其实很简单，简单就可以满足，简单地可以欺骗，简单滴可以生活

我简单地提出了我简单的要求，现在很想把我的要求给复杂化

我，不想你们任何一个我的朋友，因为我的离去，有那么一点伤心，一点都不可以伤心，

我会回来的，一年过后，大家在那约定的一个地方见面，那时的我们，不可以有那么一点陌生，

因为曾经的我们是那么地熟悉对方的生活运作，生活规律，生活方式。

我不想我回来后面对面坐着，却仿佛像不认识对方的陌生人。

这一个要求不太简单，不过你们一定要好好地为我达成

虽然这一篇很像遗言，不过就算遗言，这一篇也算不错了。不对么？

朋友丫朋友，Jay2u的，SSB的,任何地方的。。。

就如你门所说的，你们不想把我当成朋友，那你们就别当我是朋友，好么？至少我不想你因为我短暂的离去而感到伤心。你们还有他们，他们都比我这个人，好上很多倍，更守得住秘密。

解读 赵裕生

在你们眼里

赵裕生到底是一个什么人？

他给你生活带来了什么样的影响？

他的离去会为你带来什么改变？

如果有那么一天，

他可以为你做任何一件事

你会想要他做什么事情？



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在我眼里的赵裕生

他只是一个滥大人的死小孩

他很多很多比他年龄大的朋友

他天生一个心理学家

他很容易看出对方的想法

然而他仿佛看不出自己到底在想什么

因为他并没有真正的看过自己

他有时很真诚，有时很虚假

他可以面带微笑的对你好

他不在乎你的看法，

他走的是他自己的路。

你无权也无法改变他

我对他的看法就这样，你呢？

预言不久的将来

我想预言在不久的将来我会做什么？
到时候再回来看看预言有没有实现，
在决定自己是不是一个称职预言家。

先来一段spm的
B.M - A
B.I - A+
Maths - A+
Sejarah - C+
Moral - C+
Physics - C
Chemistry - C
B.C - A
E.S.T - A
Accounts - B+

其实我对自己的期望怎可能只有3a呢？
这只是我再跟自己心理战而已。
我知道我明白我不应该自己骗自己
不过只要拿到5a，
我就有那个资格上台拿我的Cert
我目前最成就的是在两年前
被邀请去hari anugerah拿奖
Top Student. 不过我你都知道，
我只是在仙家而已。

Spm完了
College来了。
我到底要选什么科？
我对任何一科都存有妄想
ICT,Culinary Arts,Tour Guide, Photographing, Psychology...
很多很多。我相信我能胜任任何一科
尽管我不是名副其实的top student.
我只想过的快乐，不想为了烦恼而生活
我其实可以很简单，随随便便找一份养得起自己和家人的工作
不过这样仿佛不跟我的名字和身份相称。
我是多么的自大，怎么可能会让自己活在人家的影子底下呢？
蛟龙自非池中物，蓄势待发冲上天.

spm就开始
我却迎来了一段新恋情
自知很不负责任
=________________+
明知道自己要出国了
还去拍拖
已经说清楚我不想让你等我
你却说不想离开宁愿等我。
我不想有一个女生等我我却在外头搞三乱四
我宁愿结束，原谅我犯贱。
我不希望你等我，我不值得你等。
我很自私，我去了德国后，还直接去澳洲
你却去瑞士，两地相隔
我不相信我们能够长久。
)=原谅我。对不起。

我不配

我不配我不配我不配
我不配当你的男朋友
我不配去爱一个人
我不配再重新去爱
冷战了么？你的心到底在想什么
我找不到我不知道
跟你在一起我很开心
没跟你在一起，我仿佛更开心
我迷失了方向，我找不到出路
爱你仿佛变成我的责任了
迷失了自我的我，你还爱么？
两情相悦坦诚相对
第一点做到了第二点呢？
我觉得我们应该回到最基本关系
由朋友做起，慢慢深入了解
再沟通交流明白对方
再决定自己适不适合对方，
知道自己真正得爱上对方
才决定一辈子的决定
坚持细水长流的我
却无意间已经变成了只在乎曾经拥有的贱人了
毕竟我们都不认识对方
我深怕失去你
更害怕失去自己
我知道我这样说很贱
原谅我就是这样的贱人
我在你心中其实是什么
男朋友么？
我倒觉得我像一个好朋友
可能在于男朋友和好朋友之间
呼之则来挥之则去的好朋友
我也许不够了解你
更没试过了解你
我真的有可能在为寂寞而拍拖？
如果是，对不起，请你狠狠地打我
如果如果有一天分手了
你觉得你还可能跟我做朋友么？
虽然我知道你还跟你的前男友是朋友
我算什么东西
只想说我真的很犯贱
不过我不想当小白脸
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
对不起对不起对不起
如果你看到了这篇文章，
自己回想看看，
其实你是不是真正的认识我？
还是，你对我只有好感而不是爱情
爱情高深莫测，我高攀不起
我想说可是说不出口
只怕越拖越痛
希望有那么一天，你会发现原来我真的是一个贱人。
那你就能彻底地忘记我。。。
我去德国的一年
请你好好深思熟虑好好地考虑清楚
我这个陌生人，其实到底适不适合你？
如果不适合，请你告诉我，我不想伤害你
都怪我怪我就好。
对不起，我不知道该不该爱你。